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08 November 2008 @ 12:41 am
Shouldn't This Feel Wrong? [30 Rock; Jack/Liz]  
TITLE: Shouldn't This Feel Wrong?
FANDOM: 30 Rock
NOTES: thoughtsicles prompt: adultery


Liz never expected to be this woman. The one that falls in love with a man while she's married. The one that makes time in her busy (beyond busy) schedule for hotel-room trysts. The one that tells her husband that she'll be "working late." She's got no reason to work late. And she's fairly certain he knows this.

But that doesn't stop her from doing this. On paper it should be wrong, but it never feels like it. When she books the hotel reservation, she uses a pseudonym on the off-chance he'd call every hotel in Manhattan to look for her, and she rationalizes this by pretending she's a movie star or something. It makes it easier.

When she waits until she's got a moment alone to stuff her lingerie in her oversized purse, she doesn't feel a twinge of guilt. And when she walks to the hotel and pays for the room in cash, looking over her shoulder, she doesn't feel like a bad person. She just feels like someone who made a bad decision along the way.

Because then she's upstairs. She's waiting for him and, soon after... she's in his arms. Their lips are sealed together and he's murmuring how much he's missed this. She knows there's a subtext there that he missed her as well, despite the fact that they do this enough and see each other enough.

He unties the sash on her coat and she pushes his off his shoulders. When he notes she's worn only the negligee under her coat, he runs his fingers along the straps while she loosens his tie.

And from there, it's a flurry of movement. His shirt hits the floor followed by his belt and both their pairs of shoes. The negligee pools around her waist as he peels it away, lips following and leaving a trail of fire where they touch.

She throws her head back, threads her fingers through his hair and murmurs his name. She's missed this too. Missed him. Shouldn't this feel wrong?

What feels wrong is her sham marriage. The reason she'd accepted Dan's proposal in the first place was because she believed Jack could never love a woman like her. Imagine her surprise when, just a few weeks after the honeymoon, on a night when she and Jack had been drinking (celebrating getting Tracy out of some jail time), Jack told her he loved her. That he'd been in love with her for more than a year.

And to her credit, she didn't intend to cheat on Dan that night, it had just... happened. And much like warming her jeans in the oven, it felt good. Suspiciously good. While they were tangled up together in his office, she kept catching sight of her wedding ring, waiting for the guilt to sink in. She'd only pulled Jack closer.

Now Jack's lying her down atop the hotel bedspread, and the fabric is itchy but she doesn't care. His hands are all over her and his mouth is on hers, whispering things, wonderful things and it doesn't feel wrong.

She never expected to be this woman, but she thinks she might be okay with that.


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{x-posted to jack_liz}
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a.: ab/tf; whispersregalish on November 10th, 2008 03:32 am (UTC)
As long as they're together right? :') Absolutely! Who needs morals? LOL.

Glad you liked this! Thanks very much.
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a.: cath/sara; hold onregalish on November 10th, 2008 03:31 am (UTC)
Thank you! :)
csiAngel: 30 Rock J/Lcsiangel on November 9th, 2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
Very well done. Somehow I can imagine Jack taking until after she's married to work up the courage to tell her how he feels.
a.: jack/liz; get closerregalish on November 10th, 2008 03:34 am (UTC)
Heee! Thanks, Jac! I figured that seemed like a Jack-ish thing for him to do, as well. :)

Glad you liked this!